Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Freaked Out

So, yesterday.. I got a headache around 3 PM, probably because I was sitting weird or holding my head strangely in an interview.. I never get headaches, so that sucked, especially since I can't swallow pills. By 11 PM, it was still there..

I fell asleep reading a book, probably around 12:30 or so. I woke up at 1:30 with my head absolutely pounding. I tried massaging it out of my neck, relaxing, closing my eyes, but nothing seemed to help.

Tons of scary thoughts started running through my mind. A brain tumor makes sense--I've been dizzy lately, my left eye is red and inflamed, and now I have a pounding headache.

My mind capitalized on the possibility of having a brain tumor. I'd have to quit school, go through radiation or chemo, and probably not be able to start working for years. I'd be really poor since my insurance sucks.. One amusing thought that I had was that I'd probably lose weight. See why I'm crazy?

I started crying because it hurt so bad, so finally after 30 minutes, I decided to go to Walgreens. It wasn't open. Seriously, aren't they all open 24 hours?? Anyways, luckily the grocery store right by me is open 25 hours. In your face Walgreens.

I got some motrtin and water.. 5 minutes later, it was gone. I texted Graham about it, because I had seriously considered calling him to come give me a blessing, even though he lives a half hour away. Poor guy--he was up an hour afterwards worrying about me with the same crazy thoughts I had.

So, that's just an example of how my mind works and how I one day might possibly worry myself to death.

4 comments:

Julie Anne said...

Every time I have a headache for a week or so, I end up going to see the doctor to make sure nothing serious is wrong with me. I always tell them about Mike's brain tumor, just in case. I think this affected us more than we like to think. Losers!

Shavs said...

Sherri whatever you do, dont ever read the Lance Armstrong book "its not about the bike" because every word of that book made me itch and moan and cry and throb...i thought for sure i had cancer and that everyone around me had cancer. it was not good. dont read it.

did you take the pills? if so i will cheer with delight over here in texas, cause i have never heard of you ever taking pills.

Shavs said...

ohhh cinnamon and gravy....

Sue said...

Well, remembering Michael's brain tumor ----- don't even think about it! I can't do it again. Just learn to swallow pills. Start with small ones. Why dizzy?

The good, the bad, and the ugly..

One thing Graham and I always ask each other on our conversations.. what do you want to hear first: the good news or the bad news? We almo...